Well last week was filled with good news from the "surgeon" ..... as most of you were aware I had to "revisit" the surgeon to have a "physical" rectal exam on the 19th of May...this was the "tell all" of what is to come with the "ostomy" bag... permanent or temporary....truth be told....I had ALOT of anxiety in the weeks to come for this visit.....at the first visit the surgeon told me NOT to google it.....well.....of coarse that's exactly what I did....shit fire.....I shouldn't of "educated" myself quit yet....damn it.....why am I so "defiant" when it was for my own peace of mind....ANYWAY....

the exam went well....well given the fact it went something very similar to this......Doctor.....okay.....I need to do the rectal exam today to find the location of the tumor.....Me....okay......the Doctor is now "gloving up"  (OMG).....Me...so do you want me to get in the gown?   Doctor....no......Me....okay....what would you like me to do?  Doctor...oh good you have a skirt on...just "hike" it up and pull your underwear down and bend over the table.....seriously.......mortified......totally.....thank GOD this is a female doctor......lets just say...this WAS NOT a pleasant experience as I had no idea what a "FULL rectal exam would entail...now for the good news once her "fist" ( not really but felt that way) was out of my "rectum"......the ostomy bag will be temporary....for about 3  months...then you will come back in and have a "reversal".....YAY!!!!  Yup....I about "peed" myself......so surgery is scheduled on June 17th.....as long as everything gets verified and approved by the insurance.....as I'm finding out.....this is another FULL time job for me......the bottom line.....the surgery will remove the tumor and do a "resection" of the rectum and the ostomy bag will allow it to heal without interruption....then the reversal....probably in September to get the "plumbing" all hooked up and back to normal (as normal as it can be after part of the rectum removed)

Just a "basic" update....my quality of health has improved a TON.....I have been able to go out and about socially and do some shopping on my own......my work schedule has continued and "B" was able to spend the night last week....he was thrilled.....I am not in any pain.....and now do not feel the fatigue of the radiation......they say it takes 6 weeks to "rid" the chemotherapy and radiation.....I'm in week 4 now....so it's better each week.....I am excited and nervous to get the "surgery's" out of the way.....it will seem like forever to recover......3 weeks no driving and resting at home.....poor Dave....this is when I will be calling in my friends to visit please......I will be VERY limited on movement during this time.....this will be very challenging for me......they might to keep me on volume....LOL...

If you follow me on facebook...you probably already know over Memorial Day week-end I was hacked.....and had to open another account......after many conversations with different people I took a serious look at being a "facebooker" and have choose to make some changes......please continue to follow me on my blog with updates with surgery....I have been working on another blog for ebay...pinterest...and house projects.....I will be sharing....alot of stuff will be posted there.....my facebook will not have alot of information when it comes to fun stuff anymore.....save my blog address's as I won't post them public much either.....I like sharing my house projects and idea's.....and all my pictures.....it's just going to be more in my control and facebook will not be it.....

That's about it for the past two weeks, nothing really exciting.....just back to more of a normal life for Dave and I......I will probably post once the surgery date get's closer......see you soon!  :-) 

Whewie what a crazy couple of weeks...

Early Sunday AM Dave and I did our photo shoot with Heather......this was alot of fun and she took some awesome pictures for us so I can get busy framing them...

As you all well know after my "fifth" week of radiation I ended up in the hospital that Sunday evening.....that was an adventure....Holy Hell...

One I do not care to "embark" on anytime again....the long and short of it.....the radiation/chemotherapy finally caught up with my system and my body reacted which caused the hospitalization for fear of infection and some bleeding they needed to stop....naturally once again...my body reacted to all the meds they were trying to give me for various reasons.....apparently I had been heading to Mexico over the border for hours...(I do not recall any of this) and I had a visitor that I do not recall....I told her......one moment please...I will be right with you....I'm going to Mexico.....OMG...horrible....embarrassing to say the least. 

But I want to thank Arla and Shawn for the beautiful flowers

and the special gift to give me some Mexico treat.....

 

 Before being released I was informed they would no longer finish radiation or chemotherpy......and  being released three days later I had a rough few day's recovering....all's my body wanted to do was get rid of all the toxins that had been put into it.....I'm glad that's over.....I did not make it to work the week of my birthday.....I just rested and missed another trip to Mexico.....SAD PANDA I was.....

The week-end was filled with yard work and cleaning the house....I felt more myself and accomplished so much....even went to the first pool party of the season on Saturday

Sunday was Mother's day and it was wonderful to get with the kids and have breakfast at the Deer Valley airport.....beautiful flowers from the kids and a gift card.....YAY

This past week has been pretty uneventful.....just letting the treatment run it's coarse in flushing my system and working......preparing for another doctor's visit next week for a "physical exam"....yes it's that time for that lovely "rectal exam" to prepare for surgery.....which will be here before you know it....I'm glad as I want this "dead" tumor removed and get these two surgery's over with so I can fully get my life back completely and "flutter" around like a butterfly as Dave says....

Summary of my life with vester.....I still have some discomfort and I never know from one minute to the next how I will feel.....some skin irritation.....dry skin.....and continued pressure in the area of the tumor, which is the most annoying thing for me...other than that.....I'm good....each day seems to change.....someone asked me how much better do I feel now.....and I said....well....in the beginning it felt like a I had a "basketball" up my ass....then it went to the size of someone's "fist"......then to a "golf ball"......now...it feels like a "pencil".....she laughed...radiation shrunk the tumor and killed it....now I need the cleansing of that to run it's coarse....it's kinda like a "withdrawl" effect from radiation and chemotherpy......I know that sounds odd...but that's what it is....

My blogging probably will be slow until surgery...which will be between July 1-15th.....back to  facebooking all my many projects I manage to have going at one time......ha.....AND sharing all my finds from the Goodwill.....thank goodness because I have had "withdraw" for month's now.....teeeheee