Finally received the referral to the Radiologist...but couldn't get in until next week....looks like "therapy" won't start until the following week.....I have been receiving calls/text regarding when my treatment will start....trust you me...I'm anxious as well....LOL

As when Sam passed.....life still came at me 150 MPH with no time to catch my breath....here I am again....with the same feeling......life just goes on.....and shit just keeps happening.....but this one....tops the cake.....I truly believed....Sam's passing was and would be the worst thing ever I would have to deal with......I was wayyy wrong......and somehow.....someway....I have to figure out how I'm going to deal with this "information" that was shared with me....because it's something I CANNOT share with ANYONE.....and let me tell you....it's way to much for one person to handle.....off I go to a therapist.....I have NO idea where else to turn......it's better than doing "nothing"....because this will eat me alive....I have no doubt....this one...I can't do alone.....but I have too......this is beyond digging deep.....I don't even know what to call this.....it's so twisted....and wrong....here is hoping I can get it somewhat sorted out in my head...and soon....