Sometimes.....

"I think my bladder is full enough today".....but I'm not sure because I had to do a "urinalysis" before I came...so I had to pound my water right after that because I knew "you" (therapist) would yell at me for not having a full bladder for radiation.....she smiled and rubbed my arm....I wouldn't yell at you.....but it's for your own good.....I know I know...I'm trying....it's always something everyday anymore and I cannot seem to keep track of everything I'm suppose to do or not do.....UGHHHH

SOMETIMES my bladder is full.....and sometimes it's not....SOMETIMES I take my shoes off for radiation..... and sometimes I don't..... SOMETIMES Sally falls off my back while on the table.....and sometimes she doesn't.....SOMETIMES I doze during radiation.....and sometimes not.....SOMETIMES I can hear them come in to adjust the table .....and sometimes I don't.....SOMETIMES the therapist trips over my shoes....and sometimes she doesn't.....SOMETIMES there is music.....and sometimes not.....but ALWAYS there are three beams of radiation that attack vester five days a week.....and I ALWAYS visualize the destruction as they beam me up......and I am ALWAYS  thankful for everyone in my life before my session is done.....a total of 19 treatments under my belt with 8 more to go.....and still.....I can't say it enough..... I GOT THIS.....NO WORRIES!!!!!