Well week three under my belt per say....ha.....

The other day driving to radiation (seems that's all I do anymore) I realized there are things I keep forgetting to blog....so here is another one of my famous "blah's"

Have you ever tried Glad "press n seal"?  Well.....this is the product they told me to use when I have "Sally" hooked up to cover the port area to keep it dry in the shower.....have you ever tried wrapping yourself in Glad wrap and keeping it on when it's wet.......hummmm well lets just say....it can be very challenging......what a job everyday.....seems I have many of them anymore......

Oh and wanna chat about the syringe of lidocaine they prescribed for the burning.....now that was an education......how was this to be applied?....seriously.....Dave said...."what the hell are you suppose to do with that shove that up your ass?"  OMG.....NOOOO dignity left in any area of my life......

And the conversation at the dinner table with the kids was about "EVERYTHING" being on fire...my taint Heather...my taint.....people ask questions and have no idea all the little shit that goes along with this......

"Taf" is everything okay in there?.....(I'm in the dressing room at radiation) ahhhh.... yea....I got it..... my jeans got stuck around my calf's and I couldn't get them off.....guess I'm putting on weight.......ha....as I'm picking myself up off the dressing room.....

Oh my god....Oh my god.....my ass doesn't fall into the toilet anymore like a little kid...my ass is growing....woooohoooo.......

"Dave"...."DAVE"....you are caught up in Sally's cord....you pulling my port....." DAVEEE" seriously wake up and get untangled for Christ sake....your killing me here......what a life experience this has been......

Lets not forgot about the little old lady I see at radiation waiting for her husband......there is ALWAYS a puzzle on the table in the waiting room....and without fail.....this little old lady is working on the puzzle...and literally shoving and pounding pieces in that do not go together...I just chuckle to myself....she doesn't wear glasses.....maybe she needs them?  My OCD kicks in and I tell myself patience...patience...when she leaves you can fix it.....Ha.....okay...enough "Blah" for today....

Heading into week 4 of therapy and so looking forward to the "down slide"......radiation has been catching up with me slowly....I have tried to ignore it...until Friday.....reality is.....I'm having side effects for about 12 hours after radiation......the next day I'm fine when I get up until I head back to therapy......I will admit it's a struggle in my mind to go to radiation knowing it's going to create pain an hour after treatment.....but I know I have to do this... it's taken ALOT of what I have inside to keep this commitment let me tell you......I DO NOT like having all my "junk" on fire......inside and out......soooo uncomfortable.......just sucks.....bottom line....and I'm totally irritated and moody......UGGHHH.....

I do not have any awesome pictures this week....I really spent every afternoon in bed "whining".....  with only 13 more treatment day's left.....I know I GOT THIS......but boy I can see I need to "dig deep" now.....so if I'm a bit "sparse" my communication you will know why....I could not of done this without all the support I have ALL around me......I am blessed and I am very thankful....believe you me I have ALOT of time to think about this......here's to week 4......hurray...hurray.....VESTER you are not welcome here and it's time you are eliminated for GOOD...I can't even say it's been nice knowing you....just go away and NEVER come back.......see YA!